I feel like a prisoner wanting to find a way out
I feel like a light pole on a crowded street
It’s nauseating at times
The weight of the world seems to have dug me under the ground
And the truth scars me every night
Is this what depression feels like?
When I was a teenager, I tried to make sense of life by (sporadically) writing down patterns I observed and lessons I learnt.
That habit gave me some sort of assurance. I hoped that if I’m ever in any dilemma (in the future), I can simply look into my ‘compilation of wisdom’ and fly away from the worries.
Time passed and incidents happened, but unfortunately I never really remembered to look back at those pages.
This post is an active attempt to honour that hope I built, and to revisit the world from a pair of less-jaded eyes.
- Your self-worth should not be measured by how much attention you are getting, but by how you measure up to your values
You tried to paint me.
Find my dimensions and angles.
You tried to find my colours
Based on pictures you’ve seen before.
But little did you know,
I am not like just any other.
I am my own self, my own creation.
Random note that I wrote to myself once:
Life is a game. And you have limited time.
The best way to excel is to just focus on playing the game effectively.
Don’t stress. But think, plan, perceive, stay calm, act, and just play.
Certain times situations will get tough. And to get by, you will really need to ‘keep your head in the game’ and focus.
And when things get smooth, proceed with high velocity and go as far ahead as you can. This way when failure tries to attack you, it will take a long time to catch up with your greatness.
As for competitors, don’t compare victories. You are racing against yourself.
And most importantly, remember to have fun. And feel good always. If there is no fun, challenge, and achievement in the game, then it’s probably not worth playing.
Have you ever seen an orangutan eating an orange?
So I thought of Googling.
This is what I found.
Intriguing (I guess). Curiosity (sort of) ends here.
Also found this.
And soulful too, considering tigers are the main predators of orangutans.
Sometimes our lives get twisted in such ways, that we end up finding comfort in the most unexpected places.